Life is like a box of Chocolate.

This past year has been such a trying one. I've had days where I didn't even wanna get out of the bed. During this year, I have even turned to addicting substances such as alcohol & even marijuana. I felt as if my only option left was to give up. In fact, I almost did... Recently, I've seen the light; life can only be as good as you make it. & as of now & on, life is gonna be fabulous. Nothing and no one will hold me back ever again. Letting go of all the pain and heart-ache. My time is NOW. I am thankful for every trial & tribulation that God has put me through, for it weren't for them I wouldn't be where and who I am today. And that person, I have grown to love and adore unconditionally.

Don't get me wrong, this doesn't mean I'm goin' to put down my swisher or throw away my bottle of Gin. But in time, I will do right. All change comes through time. And because of this don't judge me. I bet your hands are just as filthy as mine. Let us wash them together.


Just like you, I have been lied to, cheated, and treated unjustly. But unlike you, I have not let that cause a permanent negative impact upon myself. I am an ambitious, beautiful, intelligent, talented, sixteen year old setting standards, raising bars, highering goals, lowering tolerance, going places, and leaving irrelevent people behind.

The devil has put up his best fight to bring me down, but no. I stand tall and I shout NO! No, you will not bring me down. No, you will not make me lose faith. No, you do not hold my future. No, you do not have control over my mind. And no, you have no place in my heart. Never have and never will. I do believe that I am a child of God, therefore no weapon formed against me shall prosper.

At the end of a trying day, I simply lay my head to rest with hopes of a better tomorrow.

shoes, shoes, & more shoes!

mmkay, so like i know every female loves a nice pair of shoes & if you don't fuckkkayouuuu! lol, nahhh. you can't deny these are some badd ass shoes. they arent designer brands or anything, but hell they look better than some t hings i've seen celebrities wearing now-a-days... anywho, go check out the website: http://shop.artennek.com/main.sc think i might cop a few my damn self. :]

"fashionable shoes @affordable prices"

the point of it all; C.Hamilton

I can´t stay away from you too long
Even if I do I´ll always call
Checkin' on you make sure you´re ok
Be the one to brighten up your day

And the point of it all
Is I love you
You know I love you baby

My days seem long
whenever we're apart
it´s like someone had
thrown away my heart
you´re a major part of my life
And no matter what the
storm may bring
I´m fine with you,

And the point of it all
Is I love you
And the reason for it all
Is I love you

O I love
[ Anthony Hamilton Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
O I love you
O my love

I can´t stay away too long
I can´t stay away from you baby
don´t wanna be without you
I need you
O why don´t you stay
around for awhile

And the point of it all
And the point of it all
And the point of it all
And the point of it all
Ohhohh, and the reason for it all
And the point of it all
Is that I love you
Yeah, I love you

Whenever we're apart
It damn near starves my heart
And I don´t ever want to be apart

a sisters cry.

so like, i'm sittin' here babysittin' your daughter & I just wanna tell you how beautiful she is. she's one now & she is so badd. always touching stuff, breaking stuff, hittin', she's basically a mini-you. literally. sometimes, when she smiles & laughs i wanna cry, cause you're missin' all of this. but i don't, i just hug'er & tell her to gimmie kiss & she does.

my brother, you've been gone from me too long now. you missed my first time gettin' beyond pissy drunk & the time i had a hug smoke out w/ kenny & meka. also you haven't seen any of my new piercings. or was here to witness moms kick me & sarah out. me & nique STILL have our ups & downs, mainly downs. =[

but i aint giving up hope. i know you coming home soon yo. boy, do you got a surprise for you. Giselle completely took over your room. lol. baby toys EVERYWHERE! her bday party is 2mrw & i'll be sure to take plenty pictures.

Matthew, i love & miss you so much.

lls, this nigga...

Well-Known Fact.

so like, i'm not writin' this because I just qot my heart "broke" or some shit but because I qot facts niqqa. niqqas are doqs & I have yet to find out why they qet dumb upset when they find out their shorty doin' them just as qrimey as they are. smh. this world is twisted, but I love it. =]

just an update...

sittin' here in Greensboro & it's like 4am. done qot kicked out of moms crib, been chillin' w/ the pops. it's all qood. i quess. anticipatin' the joy of the fourth, blew it down w/ the cuzzos today. gahhhhh, such a relief. niqqas is like HILARIOUS. "I wanna be uhmmm.. what's the word? faithful, yeahhh that's it" haha, that one's qonna keep me lauqhin' for a minute. & my tenda, hmmmm let's just say all is well I quess... ran into an old friend, DAMN a niqqa was lookin' riqht. =] summer2009 is fabulous.